The Question With Special Answers.

What is love?
Why love?
When to love?
Where to love?
How to love?

I don't know. Yes. I'm falling in love again. This time it's special. First experience for me. Her name? I don't want to tell yet. Belum masa lagi. I'm still working on it.

I noticed that falling in love this time is different. Every sunday I go to church with her, buy stuffs with her, eat with her. I noticed that I felt relax and happy when we're together. Is this love? I don't know. I don't really know actually. after so many breakups, macam fobia dah ku mau bergerek.

But this girl. This girl, whom I met, so happy-go-lucky type, one who always smile no matter what happens, one who always cheer me up. Ku happy sangat sangat sangat sangat dengan dia.

To be continued. I'm tired actually. Datang bulan. Foul Mood for alost 3 days now.

Boom.

Hey. Lama dah sik update blog. Hehe. Malas ba. So how's life? Good? No? Typical la ya. Life la katakan. Me? Dari mula la.


STPM result tidak bagus. Sangat tidak bagus.. ku Feeling down sampai 2 minggu. Yang buat aku sedih sangat sangat ada Cikgu ni bgtau aku dapat result mcm tu sebab aku tak rajin. Frust habis la ku. apa ka ndak nya cikgu mdah giya ngan aku. WTF. mena. WTF. bukan lagi bagi dorongan ba itu. Bg stim mata saja kerja. So skrg tunggu result remarked paper tu. Sejarah sama Kesusasteraan Melayu. *fingerscrossed*


LOVE life, I met this girl, short, cute and Very religious one. Ketawanya one of a kind. Calie la. Ku feeling habis sama dia, sampai ku hilang mood jd org tak keruan bila dia dah balik Miri. fuh. nang Frust habis la ku. but right now, i'm feeling okay jak la. walaupun aku rindu gila ngan dia. :( Takpa la. Jodoh takkan ke mana-mana kan. ^__^


WORK ku nektok jd part time cikgu tuisyen bahasa cina untuk kaum bukan cina. terer kan.. pakei 3 language.. Bukan bahasa cina, tapi BISAYA, IBAN, MELAYU. bajik aku kan.. ku nang bajik.. bajik kwu. :P anyways I'm having the time of my life while teaching kids because it is NOT EASY to teach them.. Quite a challenge jua la katakan. ^____^


Now is 12.42. sekejap lagi mok tidur la. haha. ada masa ku akan update lagi. :) Bye..

Hello again. :)
Lama tak update here goes.

I'm currently having a Trial Exam for two weeks, the first torturing week are over, and I got 4 papers left. :)
Susah!! Tapi boleh la.. Dapat jawab. Thank God. ^__^

The real purpose that I want to publish now is about Politics related to church.

Sometimes i felt like the politic stuff just really annoys me. Literally.
I don't know why or what cause it but it really, really getting on my nerves.

Frankly, I don't like politics. The bad ones of course..

Then I saw this : "Politics, no matter the country, the people or even the church, if you're not ready for it, then don't even try to blend in. You'll get up being caught in the middle and die."

Then it struck me, it's true!
I remember back when I was very active in church, these things just won't stop. I don't know why.

Now I'm just being not-so-active anymore because I got a really big exam coming up in less than a month.

But to tell honestly. I've got a grudge in the church community. Why? Church Politics.

Typical typical typical. Why Bother?

Neh. The hell with it. It's not my business to begin with.

Adios.

Money and DSLR.

I Want It So Much. I Don't Care It's Canon Or Nikon.
I Just Want One.

I Just Don't have The Power To Purchase Either One Of Them.
I Just Don't Have The Money.

In Fact, I Even Doubt Whether I Can Make It To College Or Not.
I Just Don't Have The Financial Factor.

A Friend Once Told Me This : "You Got Some Natural Factor In Photography, You Should Go For It. For One With A Natural Talent In Photography Is Very, Very Rare."

For Once I Felt Happy.

But Now, I Don't Even Have The Tools To Polish My Skills. How Can I Be Happy?

People Said I Should Wait And Save.

My Savings Is On My Studies. Not To But Cameras.

I Just Don't Have The Money.

Anyone Out There, Who Can Listen To My Neediness, Please, Come And Rescue Me....

Father With A Mental Disabled Son.

Some people might think that :

"hey, how hard could it be to take care a mentally disabled children?"

My Answer , VERY HARD. in fact, its a lot tougher than taking care a normal children.

Parents have to look after their children with a whole lot more patience than normal children.

Touching to see parents willing to send them to special educational school early in the morning, then have to wait for them, and go back home that are far away from the school at late evening. 

I'm not a judge to judge them. for I, myself will be judge on the Judgement Day.

I'm not an ASS to treat them badly.

I'm grateful that I don't have to be a burden to my parents.

I'm grateful that I can take care of myself, with my own body, my own concious mind.

Let's just say that people who are mocking these mental retarded children are JACKASSes.

Let Me Ask You This : 

DO YOU MOCK THEM?

Some People Just Don't Know How To Appreciate Their Lives Better.
Even Kids Nowadays, Trying To Commit Suicide.
What The Hell Are They Thinking?
Come On.. It Is Seriously Not Worth It.
I Mean Like, For What?
Love? It Is Not Worth It.

Already Few Commit Suicide Cases Have Been Filed In Just 2 Months.

Ok Enough Talk About Suicide.

I Found Out That, Some Bunch Of 15, 16 Years Old Whimp Kids Are Trying Very Hard To Take People Out. Even Their Seniors.

Like Seriously, Its All They Can Do?
They Only Know How To Criticize, Yet They Are Not Aware That They Are Criticizing Themselves.

Such A Whimp.
Am I Criticizing? No. This Is The Truth About Them.

Someone Like Sidney Mohede :)

I Would Love To,

One Day,

One Heart,

One Desire,

One Dream,

To Being Able To Bring People Into Praise And Worship Sessions..

I May Be Nervous,

But That's Might Just My Kind Of Thing To Go On.

And Being On The Stage,

Just Like Below. :)